MudBanny

Cheers.

2009-07-29T01:53:00.000-07:00

I never expected to post here again. Have I abandoned this blog? For a while I have. Maybe I need to be slapped around before I can bring myself to post up something new. If you care enough to know, then yes. I have been slapped around. But not in the literal sense. It's like a bucket load of acid has just been spilled so carelessly over me. Who could do such a thing? Well.

Sometimes, in your life, you think you have something. You have someone. I'm rather glad that I have a tight group of friends whom I care for so dearly, who cares for me, too. But it still hurts. You know...You think someone's one of those "real" people. True to themselves. True to your friendship. But in the end they just end up...Leaving you. I guess I'm one of those people. I'm one of those people who believed they had a real friend.

It's not as if I'm saying I don't - A shout out, I love you Iona, Hope, Livanne and Micah - You guys are like...Wow, you guys aren't something I had expected to meet. I couldn't be more blessed to have friends like you. I love you guys. But yeah. It still kinda hurts. You guys aren't my backup friends. I don't have anyone like that. I value each and everyone of my friends. Equality. But these four girls...They're higher than most people because they're like my sisters. But this blog won't really be about them. It'll be about a certain someone who so foolishly and recklessly told me I was a bitch. Who told me I used people. Who just plain out hurt me.

I mean, I can take being insulted. Throw them all at me, I won't even insult you back. Okay. Maybe I will. But really! I don't get why people have to accuse me of being something I'm not. I do not use people. I may control them, control them into agreeing about what I'm thinking. But dear god, dear holy Jesus, dear Mother of God, I do not use them. That's just rubbish! I mean...It hurts. It hurts even more because it came from her. Someone whom I considered to be a real friend.

Right now I ask myself.

Who is at fault here?

I don't think it's me. I didn't do anything. I was a freak. I was a freak amongst normal people. Wait. I AM a freak. I AM a lunatic. So sue me. But I'm a good friend, too. So she doesn't have the rights to accuse me of being such a thing. I know, it's not my fault. It's not my loss. It's hers. If someone can't accept having me as a friend, can't admire me as a person, then FER SHO YOU'RE GONNA GET YOUR ASS KICKED. I mean. No. No. I didn't mean it like that. I meant that it's their loss and that I won't bother with them anymore.

I try not to involve myself with her anymore. But god. It's just so hard. I mean...Once in a while, somebody enters your life. You think they're going to stay with you forever. But then...I came to a horrible conclusion that that someone just lied. I had so much fun with her. I know. I'm such a sap for blogging about this. But damn, I just need to get this out. It's hard. It's not easy. I want to tell her to STFU and just be friends with her again, but she's made it clear that she doesn't want me.

Even though I miss her...School's getting harder...It's getting harder to type this now. But I'm not someone who cries over things like this. I mean, I cried because of Titanic days ago. And my tears aren't worth it for a person like this. So...So yeah.

I end this here.

My regards to you, my former friend.

For a while I thought you were being real. You were being true. Too bad I was wrong.

I'll surely miss you. You were unique. You were fun. You were...You were a biatch. A freak. Just like me. But...Yeah. Bye bye.

You know who you are.

And another thing.

Iona, Hope, Livanne and Micah...You guys. You guys are awesome.

Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.

---Kris, over and out.

Because I'm here to save a Friend

2009-04-15T21:24:00.000-07:00

So here I am, able to get off my butt and write something again. I love this new layout, my obsession with Lady Gaga...Ah, she's awesome. But yeah, anyway. About the title. Let me tell you, the interweb is quite big but I managed to make a great friend online. Her name is Maria Therese Marban and I call her ~~Coconut~~ Ria. I met her in www.kzone.com.ph 2006 or was that 2007. Yeah. And she went on a hiatus, stopped going to Kzone but I had her Gaia Online account. We slowly became friends and ended up chatting on YM, I think we had the same reaction when we said we were from CDO - we were from the same city. Ah, a small world it is.

And last year, Easter Sunday 2008, I met Ria face to face. I sound like I'm in love with her. I give you my word that I am not, I love my Earl of Pudding and nothing can change that. I love her in an UNROMANTIC way. So yeah. We had a blast. And OMG SHE WAS SO COOL! What? So I'm fangirling now, too? But meh. We spent the whole day talking...And we didn't stop, except for when we ate lunch and I had to go. Yeah.

But srsly. It was a tough year...Ria had no internet! And I felt all alone online (okay, so there were the other guys, RP gais but yeah). And she just told me yesterday that she got her card and I was more than thrilled to hear that she had 90+ and high 80s, but then there came her Filipino grade. I tell you Riri, 77 is better than a 73. I failed Computer, it is embarassing and I am and I feel so bad for myself. But Ria, don't get down. You can do so much better than that now that you're a Sophomore, and Sophies have it easy. Seriously. Take it from me. Last year, it was a breeze! OMIGOD! I'm a Junior already. -faints-

And I just read her blog entry, her latest entry, and my laptop almost slipped from my lap. It's a good thing I'm on a bed, yeah. But I don't get why her father would want to cut the internet. Sure, he can do that, but why not do it when classes start again? It's too late for it, it's not like Ria could take the test, she'll just suffer from epic boredom. And she'll go mall-hopping like crazy. Ma laagan na lang gyud na si Ria. Seems like that.

End this entry here.

Forever the sickest kid,

Kris

P.S: Ria! DON'T ABANDON ME!

New Layout

2009-04-07T19:42:00.000-07:00

I kinda like this layout. Don't ask me why. It has no bunny and all that but yeah, it's pretty cute. :3

So yes. Another stupid entry cause I kinda feel stoopeed. I'm prolly gonna post something about swimming later when I get back from practice. Haha. =)

Not the best of posts, but I feel so tired. My back aches and my neck aches and crap. Can you believe that this Maia person...she goes all "Adell's become one of them" when Adell is just being frickin honest? Honesty only goes so far, but hey...She can't do that. She sucks ass at role playing, dear god, she's a Mary-Sue. Even people who don't RP comes to a conclusion that : (1)She sucks, (2) She's a Mary-Sue, and (3) she fails and that she's a complete and utter n00b. If you read this Maia then HAHAAHAHA. YOU SUCK. That'll teach you to actually talk bad about us and imply that we're dumb. I repeat, you suck. You can't just say things like that and get away with it cause, honey, you won't get away with it.

KKTHXBAI.

WTF moments :D

2009-04-02T07:21:00.000-07:00

"...wtf."
-me

"wtf are we wtf-ing for?"
-gavin

So me and a friend of mine (Gavin) are hyped up earlier tonight and...well...yeah. D: Wtf moments were genius. I'm a genius. Yeah. 8D

So get this, we have 35 wtf moments so far and it's all amusing. xD;;

"Actually, you made a lot of wtf moments tonight. I have around 35 right now, I think." - soldier

Yeah. And get this. He made me do a post in this RP site and lookie here now. He's not even bothering to reply cause of mental (oops. mental.) blockiness and whatever. And now he goes, "Why 'Not a Word' for the title?" and hell-oooo, Gavin, you suggested it!

Screw you! D<

Damn you, you idiot to your toilet!

wtf moment count so far : 35.

We're losing our fizz. Damn.

I'm Sick T_________T''

2009-03-30T04:36:00.000-07:00

And I'm not even
Pulling anyone's leg
Right now,
I'm here to say,
I'm down in the dumps,
And,
I'm sick D:

I feel so sick right now. I have colds and coughs and it is so not cool. That's why the AC isn't on. D: It started yesterday, I think. And I just got my award. Journalistic Award or something.

Oh, oh, did you know? I failed Computer. 73. My average is 85.something, though. Maybe my teacher was just drunk (fat chance) and her pen slipped? Oh, a girl can dream.

As always, Nana, my younger sister, is top and meh. Meh. Meh. I don't feel like eating ice cream or chocolate right now. All I want to do is curl up in my bed...

And sleep...And hope that tomorrow, I'll be feeling A-okay.

I spent yesterday afternoon with Ria :D

2009-03-29T01:10:00.000-07:00

Blow the candles out,
Looks like a solo
Tonight,
I'm beginning to see the
Light.

So yes! It was a total booyeah cause I spent yesterday afternoon with an ah-mazing person. Ria. She rocks. Story of how we met, we met in KHQ, then in Gaia, and went, "OMG! It's a small world!" and then we met IRL in the pool thing. Surprise surprise. xD;; So yesterday, me and tita were going DVD shopping or just going out for the shiz and the fun, when Ria was all, in YM, "You still going to ketkai?" and I was like, "I think so..." I didn't want to go anymore cause it was frickin hot and I didn't have money but when Ria said, "I'm going. Lets meet there." So I was really all, ecstatic, yeah. She's just plain awesome. 8D

It was so frickin hot me and tita decided to get a cab cause papa was out and mama was at Cebu that time. Yesterday. She just got home. So yeah. I didn't even bring a wallet, I was penniless. xD;; I totally phailed yesterday cause the only thing I bought was a lipbalm, cellphone and then my card. Meh. So I was honestly late. xD Ria already said that she was in Ketkai already, and I was only brushing my hair. Lol at that. So we got there, ignore ignore the traffic, and bam. Texted Ria that I arrived...she thought I was already there. Lol. But yeah.

We spent a good amount of time in National Bookstore where we...commented on the books. ;^; The manga-how to draw, that is-were ugly. Ugly drawings. No good use for drawing or anything. So meh. We left the bookstore and went to buy CP load, cause I was buh-uh-us-ted. No load. So yeah. Bought load, left for WOF. World of Fun. Ttly defeated Ria in Tekken, maybe it was cause it was Tekken 3. We played Tekken 4 and it still sucked. She played Tekken 5 and won all two rounds using Lili. Ahh, I love the blond. Defeated the guy and all that. ^____^''

We roamed around the mall, looking at gadgets and other things. We even got to Filbars where I saw Ria's dear dad. I swear he's cool. Well, IMO, anyway. :3

The whole afternoon was a blast. After Ria left I went to McDo to meet up with my tita and we went home, yeah. Yey for a good afternoon!

Never get me mad Kayz?

2009-03-27T20:21:00.000-07:00

"Never get a Kris Young mad at you."
- Ria

"We'll both take pleasure in destroying you."
-Me

Okay. Now freaking get this. Some babe actually thought that if she ever came my way I'd just let her pass. I'd let people pass but not her because there's something that's very unlikable for her. Haha. Well, she's more or less lucky that she's featured in this blog. Damn.

Augh. I will vent here! And it did not FRIGGEN HELP THAT I COULD NOT LOG IN! GAHD!

Note to Ria: My password. Yeah. xD

Ohkay. Back. So she's all, "Another Grell fan." ...Wtf do you mean by that, honey? Have you seen THOUSANDS of Grell fans prancing in your street lately because I'll accept that, but if not then go to hell. Even before you got on my nerves, I already thought you sucked. Both as an RPer and as a KHQer. Haha. You suck.

And it didn't help when you totally trashed me (and Ria and Aile before) in YM. We don't buy it. Your grammar is horrendous! Hell-ooo!! 5 letter word that you're missing. BRAIN. Brain check, honey. There is no such thing as "unvulnerable", my and Ria checked. It's "invulnerable". SRSLY. BRAIN. BRAIN. WAHT? YOU DON'T HAS ONE? OH. MY APOLOGIES. NOT.

What else is worse is that...I work hard on my RPs. My post and all that and she calls me "Like a TG Rper." And Ria tells me that the Rpers in TG sux! D8 And I believe her because she's awesome. Augh. SHE'S GOING DOWN.

As Ria said, "Mess with a Kris Young and she will total you. Of course I'll help." Yes. You must help me, Ria. Because from here on out she is going to Hell. Because I am THE Grell Sutcliffe. And you are THE Countess Phantomhive. We'll show her hell. We'll teach her the proper way to beg.

OH HEY!

AS EXPECTED.

I FEEL BETTER NOW.

WHEEE!

P.S: Ria...I luffles you. What would I do without thee? :D

BLOGGU about School {OMG}

2009-03-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

There's only
Two types of
People in the
World

Oh well, here goes the shiz. School's ended and I don't get it why I'm posting this just now. Yeah. Well, I actually didn't stress over all the Clearance signing cause I passed all the requirements, yeah. Earlier this morning I was woken up by dad, he said he got a call from my school and I thought: Oh...Hell...Not summer classes!. It's a good thing I'm constantly wrong in my so-called predictions cause the school called to tell my parents/guardian/anybody that I am to come this Monday in my uniform. Even if they didn't call, I would still come with my fam cause of my over-achieving sister who's been...Top 1 since grade 1 (she's in the 4th grade now). But I won't be coming in my uniform. Just when I thought I won't be wearing the thing...I'm forced to once more and I even have to go up on stage.

They said the award was a "Journalism Award" or something. Meh. I feel indifferent about it. I guess I just don't care about these things. But seriously, Junior this June... I need to up my grades a bit so that I can probably qualify for an award when I graduate. Cause I want to pose holding something other than my diploma. I will strive for Honors because of that reason. God I'm vain. And...foolish. 8D

Ohhai sleepover!

2009-03-22T17:16:00.000-07:00

Oh hey,
Lets go,
Hey you,
Don't be an idiot,
Lets go!

Sleepover laterz! Yay!

OMG.

I FAIL CAUSE THIS IS THE SHORTEST POST EVER.

-PHAILS.-

o8-o9 {{List of people who HELPED}}

2009-03-21T02:30:00.000-07:00

People say it's easy,
It just went like a breeze,
Hey, hey, hold up, bud,
Sophomore year has just ended,
Lets all tie the ribbon,
Lets all put an end,
Because Sophies, we are no more
Hoping to the good old Hell that we'd
Survive 3rd Year,
Yes, Sophomore year
Was...
RETARDED.

So there I was, sitting in the car, with mama driving and I was thinking : Hey, it's summer already...And I'm pretty confident about my scores...Haha...no more school. And then, like, heck, it hit me! School's over and I won't get to see a few people, YM does not count, okay? And I probably won't see them even more if I transfer to Xavier...so hmm...So I'm going to dedicate this whole entry to all the good guys that helped me along the way in my Sophomore year.

Before I list all the names and the reasons, let me say a few things about this school year.

Sophomore year is nothing compared to Freshman year. As a second year...we seriously just threw all our cares away. So it's true that Sopho year is one of the easiest years of high school. Haha. Well, I guess it was because we were used and were expecting the unexpected...maybe that's why I found it easy. The exams were a fail though, still frickin hard but hey, at least we learned.

We did a lot of stupid things in Year 2 Gratitude and I'm pretty much happy that we didn't get in too much trouble. My classmates are insane, but they're the good kind of insane. Even though there is not a day that our class doesn't break out and form a riot, we still have our laughs. And trust me, laughing is one hell of a medicine to survive one period in class.

So yeah. Lets drop the titles of Sophomores and put on our new IDs because this opening, we're going to be Juniors. Lets all have a ball and hype up for the prom and lets all be ready to say goodbye to the insanity when we graduate because High school is just one short journey that is fun like hell.

Friends. Foes. Classmates. People. You know who you are.

Throughout this school year, I've made my bonds with my friends stronger. I've learned to hate somebody, but then in the end I apologized and said, "Lets be friends." because I know deep inside me that I am [strike]evil[/strike] nice person. So here are the list of all the people that has been nice to Kris Pauline J. Young, whether you're from my section, Gratitude, or from Generosity or Obedience, just because you've helped me once, you'll be here.

I'm gonna start off with my best friend, hey, we've been classmates for like...2 years. High school only. The other two (and the other one is in XU. Haha. Micah.) are in another class. Bwahaha.

Here, I present to you...THE AWESOME PIPOLZ LIST:

1. Hope Ysabelle Ong - haha. I can still feel ever shove you've given me, yeah. Bwahahah. Oh wait. You're gonna massacre me this Monday when you get to my house so...umm...yeahh...Oh well. You've done cool things for me this year.

2. Herman Tan - dude, without you, I would've failed in my projects. I can't count how many times I've run to you and buzzed you on YM saying, "Herman! Help me! Please!" so yes. Thanks, mate. Your poems are great, better than mine. (I rock at the field of writing stories neways. haha. :D)

3. Iona Kiarra Verdad - omg. twinny! bwahahaha. nahhh. wait. YOU'RE USELESS TO ME THIS YEAR. WTF DID YOU DO?! D<>

4. Rowena Pagaduan - hey, hey, girl. remember what I said? I meant it. You've helped me loads in Bio. :D Thanks.

5. Livanne Po - ...USELESS TWAT. (you're one of my tight friends...so i think I have to put you here. meh.)

6. Rovi Maputi - thanks, Rove, you've done loads for me.

7. JV Ong - hahah! Jayvvvv!! Lingaw ko, bai. Haha. Sige hilabtan si Hope. (Sorryy Hope!)

8. Legine Dy - somehow...murag nag kasinabot ta karong last quarter...haha Lej. Buang jud ka. Thanks for the...err...answers?

9. Patricia Getueza - Pat, I'll miss you when you go to Manila. Lingaw japun ka nga tao. Thanks. ^____^

10. Lawrence Ting - YOU USELESS, PERVERTED, JERKISH, ARROGANT, IDIOT. Senpai. Sensei. WHATEVER. The only thing I learned from you is that "Thou must not use a fork when drinking soup." oh...and theres "Never be afraid to raise your hand. learn from your mistakes." (Or was that Herman? Anyways.) Anyways, Senpai, you're still stupid. I hate you. No thanks to you cause you're a jerk.

11. Danica Caberte - oh...why are you number 11? Wait...Lawrence should be 11...DAMN YOU, YOU FILTHY ELEVEN (talking to Lawrence). So yeah. Bwahahah. Who knew Twilight could like...actually...make us good friends? But now I hate Twilight and you're starting not to like it but you're sitll all up for Taylor Lautner and I like the dude so it's all cool! I'm slowly converting you to become an HP fan! Haha! Anime! Jigoku Shoujo is hell for you, yeah. Go Ren-kun!

12. Micah Noelle Francheska Viado - you might be all "WAI?!" when you see that I've used your full name, rather than just your first. As you can see...I like your name, Micz. And even though naa naka XU, buang japun ka. Tee hee hee. You didn't help me this year but you're not useless. We have our gos, our rounds, but I always win. Get that, I always win.

13. Mikee Parell - akong buang na igagaw. Wahaha. Lingaw baya kah. But...why are you in this list anyway? Helped me in school...nope. Murag si Lyn Ann...

14. Louisse Lyn Antoinette Young - ...Hmm...Helped me a bit in my writing. Yey! :D

15. Nikaia Secretaria - Pshaaa. Thank you Hope for reminding me about Nikaia. So yes. Nikaia...thanks for the help! Even though you copy my Bio answers sometimes. XD;;

16. Ri-ri (Ria) Marban - dudette. You are...one heck of an anti chill pill. :D We're just so hyped up together, you listen to me when I rant and I listen to you when I rant. You rock, Ri! :3 Oh. And you introduced me to the beauty of Kuroshitsuji, Code Geass, Love Monster and Vampire Knight. You rock even more for that.

17. Andre Hojas - Did you know that it was you that made me get into the Harry Potter fandom? Well, now you know. You're an idiot pero thanks kay ikaw sal-an na im crazy about Harry Potter now.

18. Jerick Fermano - haha. you made the whole class go "LOL" at one point and in the next you made us all hate you coz ikaw sal-an dugay mi nanguli. pero lingaw baya ka, Jerk...err...I mean Jerick. :))

19. Liezel Tan - Liezel...you were crazy. And...wa ta mag kasinabot usahay pero lingaw ka. Haha.

20. TRAITOR. I mean, allen jay wee eng - SNOB. SNOB. SNOB. TRAITOR. . .
Um...you know what? Why did I even think about putting you in this list? We rarely talk, we ignore each other. ("Kinsay snob sa ato? Ikaw ray di ga pamansin!" - Allen) Okay. Not my fault. STFU, stupid last minute conversations with the idiot. Meh. Okay. We're good friends. We're still cool now even though I ignore you for very selfish reasons. You're...(stumped. no words). Wait. Tee hee hee. I mean that. Oh well. Wow. Taas lageh ni bai. :)) Oh well. You're not useful to me this year. But you're one of my ~~close~~ good friends so yeah. Here. 20. Whatever.

-

So yes. They're not awesome but yeah. I can't put all the others in this list cause it's gonna be quite long. Hm. Thats all for now~! :D

In our Words {My poem}

2009-03-19T04:18:00.000-07:00

In our words,
We build a world that is entirely for us,
In our words,
We find ourselves,
In our words,
We are free

- That's an original, baby! :D

Let me start this blog off with a poem I made...It's been a while since I wrote poems. Here goes me...

In our Words

In a world where justice and democracy are shadowed,
Here we stand
Teenagers we are,
We do not speak unless it does not gain us something,

We are silent
Our battle cries are not heard, we ourselves do not cry them out,
We remain silent
Silence we are, forever until we speak

Given a pen and a paper,
Given a whole new prospective,
Given a whole new view,
Given hope,

To write it all down,
Rubbish or not,
We write
Steadfast yet surely, we will succeed

In the diary we write,
We write about our dreams,
We write our minds,
We write the things we cannot scream to the world,

In these words, in our words we will live,
In our words we will thrive,
In our words we will find a new hope, a new land,
In our words we will seek for a better tomorrow,

In our words we will win this battle,
We have lost it so often, this mountain so steep to climb,
Today, we will topple over it,
Today we will get lost in our words,

Lost in the words we write, lost in our own thoughts,
In these words we will find sanctuary,
In the confines of our own thoughts we will find ourselves,
In our words we will no longer be lost

Ah. Now I hope that wasn't a mess. :D

Oh well. In Our Words, wholly inspired by Freedom Writers.

I just saw the movie, gosh am I late, and loved it to bits. I love the way how it is true in all its fine glory. I love every part of it. I don't really know what I'm going to blog about, oh. The poem. Yeah. That's an original. Written by moi on the day of March 19, 2009; 7:36 pm.

Freedom Writers gives hope to all. Anne Frank's light in the dark room which we call our souls will engulf us, not in darkness but in purity. We will survive this raging battle called life. We will because "We will forget about all the voices that told us we couldn't do it, could not succeed. We will take them out and we will be a whole new person. We will."

END.

The Cheers {for sweet revenge}

2009-03-19T00:14:00.000-07:00

So many bright lights that cast a shadow
But can I speak
Is it hard understanding, that
I'm incomplete

I've been listening to My Chemical Romance now and I just remembered why I love them so much. Not only is Gerard Way a UNIQUE character, their music speaks to the soul!

I love it especially when Gerard goes, "Know that when you say "MCR saved my life!" the feeling is mutual." Who wouldn't love the guys for that?

Gerard...Gerard...Ah...Gerard Way. How old are you again? 31? XD;;

Frank and his comedic antics, yeah.

Oh well. This band really is one of my ultime faves. BLG, SecondHand, AllAmericanRejects, 3daysGrace, Paramore or anything else can't replace it! I might be obsessing over these bands, an artist or two, but MCR will forever be the best band - and I know it deep in my heart.

Who wouldn't seriously fuss over the lines :

"Well, I'll be holding on tonight. What's the worse that I could say? Things are better if I stay. So long and goodnight."

That line, my friends, is awesome. "Well if you carry out this way, things are better if I stay. So long and goodnight."

Just goes to prove that GOOD music comes in the form of MCR and that their songs have a great impact on those who listen to them. Yeah.

Helena is currently playing and I seriously want to go to an MCR concert!

VIVA LA VIDA {{SUMMAH}}

2009-03-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

Your voice
It was the soundtrack of my
Summer.
SUMMER.

I need to step outside just to feel the breeze hit my cheeks. Yeah. Summer na jud!

Yey! But somehow...it's not really exciting. Oh well. I guess I'm gonna miss some friends.

Oh, Patricia! I'll miss you, yeah. Sorry about the Sweeney Todd DVD. But I'll miss you. You won't be back next year. Oh well. Have fun in Manila! T_T''

Visit us here in CDO if you have the time, yeah. More power to you, Johnny Depp fan!

So yeah.

I'm looking forward to Summer. Ah. Oh the year just goes by...

HappeeBirthday to my bestie! :D

2009-03-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

So can you feel it?
Coming down?
Get up, get up from the ground!
Stand up!

So here goes the deal...or here's the low down on things. Today is Iona Kiarra Verdad's birthday and she is absolutely one of the greatest people I've ever met. Plus, she's like a sister. A twin. Yeah. We're twins. She's just curly. And shorter. XD;;

Meh. Kiarr, you're 15. 15 more years till you turn 30! Whee!

You're old!

I dedicate the song "The Climb" to you, biyotch cause you're all like, "There's always gonna be another mountain. Always gonna wanna make it move." yeah.

So happy birthday, Disney Princez! =D

Multichap

2009-03-13T18:13:00.000-07:00

Cause everytime you fight
the scars are gonna heal
but they're never gonna
go away

Currently doing a multi-chaptered fic about Sasori and Deidara. Yayness! I'm gonna stick to it for a while.

Oh well. I'm doing a research for our topics this Monday. And seriously. Our AP teacher is killing us. He's making us study topics that are out of the book. Like...damn. D:

Acting like you're somebody else

2009-03-13T02:40:00.000-07:00

You fall
and you crawl
and you break
and you take what you can get

Too much Avril Lavigne. Well, whatever. She rocks and I love her. :D

The exams earlier this afternoon was quite easy, yeah and I miss you, bloggywhateveryournameis!

So yeah. Vampire Knight has caught my attention and I lovelovelove Shiki and Aido and Ichijo! Die, Kaname!

End of post!

God this is short. :D

In && Out {as of now}

2009-03-11T04:08:00.000-07:00

And it's all up,
It's all out,
It's all going down,
In && Out

In Out

Blogging 1. Livejournal
Code Geass 2. Naruto
Vampire Knight 3. Jigoku Shoujo
Lelouch Lamperouge 4. Lelouch vi Britannia
Suzaku Kururugi 5. Zerozaku
Britannia (Lulu) 6. Britannia (Charles)
Japan 7. Area 11
Gino Weinberg 8. Lord Jeremiah
Orange-kun 9. Todou
Lloyd Aslplund 10. Lakshata
Zero Kiryu 11. Kaname Kuran
Ichijou Takuma 12. Yuki Cross
Hanabusa Aido
Kuroshitsuji 13. KKM
Grell Sutcliffe 14. Sebastian Michaelis
Paramore 15. BoysliekGirls

BEAT D:

2009-03-11T01:11:00.000-07:00

Tired.
Weary.
Feeling augh.

I hate that crazy NAT exam.

It was totally tiring and the lot. D:

But we were dismissed early. So meh. And no afternoon class, yey!

So yeah. I just finished with my profile for this RP {Bellum Infinitus} and done with a paper I need to pass to our Biology teacher this friday. All's thats left is the AP narrative report! -headdesk-

And I wanted to watch Vampire Knight...

I need to get this report done. And then I'll watch Shiki and Aido-kun again~ Yey!

OMG! 15 minutes!

2009-03-10T03:04:00.000-07:00

15 minutes
is ENOUGH TIME
for a
freakooo
liek me;;

See that?! 'Ell, even Kallen is pissed//in a hurry!

And omg~

Ultimatum!

Must logout soon cause there's this frickin NAT exam tomorrow.

Pure crap.

Damn.

Ohnoeeesss!!

D:

End.

OhmiGeassu {My Code Geass review}

2009-03-09T21:45:00.000-07:00

Those who are prepared
to fire
Are the only ones
to be fired at

I bestow upon you all my views on the anime, Code Geass.

The Plot :

9/10. It's a bit crazy, but it's good. I just love the whole plot, entirely, and the twists and also those crazy spin-offs.

The Graphics :

10. Nuff said.

The Characters :

10. Seriously! Who'd have ever thought that pesky Nunnally would end up killing her own brother?!

Over-all:

10. Okay. This is biased but that up there is sort of a joke. Here is my real review :

I have come to love this great anime, Code Geass. I have not watched Death Note yet but people say Code Geass ripped Death Note off. Well, I'll just see, won't I?

I personally hated Lelouch back in the first season, up until the very last episode and when he and Suzaku aimed their guns at each other, all I was hoping for was that Lelouch would die there and then. But he didn't. So long for that.

The first season is a bit crazy, so many lives weren't even spared. Such was Euphemia vi Britannia, 3rd Princess to the Britannian Empire. My loathe for Lelouch/Zero was at it's highest point because I seriously liked Euphie. God, Lelouch. Way to slaughter them all.

I like C.C and the pairing of Lelouch but I still hate him, well, dislike him because he crushed my first OTP - Suzaku/Euphie. So yes. I hate him because of that. And he is so totally just using people for his own gain. Screw you, Nunnally.

Kallen Kouzuki is my favorite girl character, top 1, and she remains as so even to this day. Her Knightmare is awesome! Lloyd Asplund is just hilarious. I forgot to mention that I instantly fell in love with Kururugi Suzaku when he came out. :D

The ending was...very...O.O'' I was seriously pushing the play/play button cause I thought my DVD was busted. "It can't end here! It can't!" So yeah. And enter, second season which I had to watch online cause I haven't bought the DVD yet.

I was exceptionally shocked when Villetta Nu (I love her! :D) went undercover as a teacher. Lelouch didn't even seem as if he was Zero...and then enter a new lead character - Rolo Lamperouge! Rolo is adorable and I love him to bits!

So when Lelouch was all, "I'm just gonna use you" - after he regained his memories cause of C.C - I seriously started hating him more. God, damn you Lelouch.

So fast forward, fast forward...I pity Lelouch. He's gained my sympathy. I was like, when he was off battling with the lulz Black Knights, "No, no, Lelouch!" so yeah...I kinda like him. D: He isn't killing that much anymore. But he's still a psycopath.

Hmm...Rolo's end was...so...sad. He died saving Lelouch. Oh well. I'm a Britannian and all that but I can't bear to see Lelouch or the Black Knights hurt, same goes with the Britannia army, aka, the Knighto of Rounds! Thehm Knights of Rounds are great, kick arse pilots.

Lelouch gained my sympathy, I like him now, but only a little bit, because Suzaku-kun is so bitter and cold. Gino is waaaaaayyy happier than him.

The ending was a total spin-off. I thought Lelouch died but in truth he's immortal? Well, I'm glad for him. Suzaku and the rest of the world can now live happily because Lelouch and C.C are travelling the country. haha for them.

But in reality...Lelouch is dead. Lelouch vi Britannia died and a new Lelouch Lamperouge was born. So yes. C.C is giddy because Lelouch will be with her for...forever...they are the immortals(!) and they rule!

In all decency, I'm happy about the ending. I'm happy for Kallen, Suzaku, Gino, Anya and Orange-kun (Jeremiah), Villetta, Ohgi, and Lelouch, C.C and everybody else.

This anime is a win for me and I love it. :D

How I want it {When I...err...die?}

2009-03-09T04:25:00.000-07:00

Don't plan it for me,
Let me do it,
For in the afterlife,
I am still present
Here and
Now

I'm gonna be all mental right now, well, more so than usual, and make a list on what I'd like when I'm like...err...gone from this world. I'm that screwy of a person. Haha. Here's the list :

1. I'd want to be cremated. Because its so much more cooler and my parents can like, put my jar on a table and do vigil-vigil every other night and pray for me and then stick me in a corner where there's no light. Now that's demented! But seriously. Cremation is good for me. I wouldn't feel it if they burn me down, anyways.

2. I don't want SAD music to play when they bury me! I want Taylor Swift to play like, "Fifteen" in the background or, or, "Jibun WOOOOO!!" in honor of Code Geass or Amber Pacific or "When it Rains" by Paramore. Just not something so...bleak and sad. D: They can also play "We All Deserve to die...(Epiphany)" by Sweeney Todd OST. Yeah. The whole ST OST is an in for me when I'm all R.I.P. Like, play Broken by Seether and Amy Lee AND I want Nathaniel Marshall to SING, GODDAMMIT! SING AT MY FUNERAL! Let him sing "I will do anything" because I love him to death! D<

3. I don't want people to cry! Sheesh! When I'm dead I don't want them to cry cause, like, it's gonna be the last they're gonna see of me or my body and I don't want the moment to be ruined with their tears! I want them all to laugh. Laugh like maniacs and cry because of happiness! Okay, PEOPLE?!

4. I don't want the guests and me, myself, to be dressed in white OR black. I want to be dressed in fluffly colors that will brighten my day. Wait. Wait. What am I saying?! I'm going to get cremated...well...I want the job done. And whilst they put me in that haya thing...I hope they dress me in blindingly bright colors. And remember, people, play Sweeney Todd songs! Or...Taylor Swift. OR MILEY! JUST NOT JONAS BROTHERS! D<

5. I want my blog, yes, this blog, to be updated every week or as often as possible. Like, post stuff that says, "SHE'S DEAD" and shiz. And I want my YIM to be opened with somebody telling people that I've died or shiz like that.

6. When they read what I did as a person, I want them to state :

"Pauline was a fanfiction writer. She got into character and felt what she write, she was making herself part of the story. She WAS the story."

"RolePlaying was her forte."

"She listened to a lot of Taylor Swift songs."

"She was crazy. In a good way, mind you all."

"She had always loved Orlando Bloom and all his movies. Including Johnny Depp."

"She liked reading and writing and watching yaoi-animu."

"When she likes something, she REALLY liked it."

"Harry Potter was her savior."

"She loved it when Gerard Way from MCR said, 'Write some poetry, write a book, start a band...MAKE YOUR EFFIN' (fu-ing) MARK!)'"

"Naruto was the anime she had started writing for, besides Shaman King. She takes an interest on Konan of Akatsuki because "She can totally flip people off and show them her ring...you know that's gotta be like my favorite thing." And she has remained true to Deidara of the Akatsuki."

"Code Geass was good for her, too. She hated Lelouch Lamperouge/Vi Britannia with a passion for quite some time."

"...She was always the emotional one. Shedding a tear or two after watching a touching scene or reading one."

7. I want all my books, YES, INCLUDING YOU, HARRY POTTER, to be buried with me. :D

8. Except my Twilight series. I WANT IT TO BE BURNED!

9. Contradiction to number 7. I'm technically not going to be buried so...just leave my Harry Potter thingies in my room.

10. Animu. SAVE THEM FOR THEY ARE LIFE! I order all my family members and all my friends (barkada, close ones) to watch them all, in memory of me!

11. Maybe the only song that's going to be sad that'll be playing is "You Raise me Up" AND IT WILL NOT BE THE ONE FROM JOSH GROBAN! I want it done by Lena Park. My cousin, Lyn Ann, would know what this song is and where this song came from. -cough-KSJ-cough-

12. I want people to remember me as "The mental girl who died laughing. Literally."

13. I really want a huge picture of myself in my room. And my room should be left empty. Sorry, tita. Haha. Chances are, you're going to be in USA by then.

14. OMG! My world domination dream! Gah! Ruined!

15. I want the Queen of England or whoever the hell is the ruler of the crazy country to come to my burial. Ha!

16. I want people to say, "All Hail!" without a reason. Meh.

17. Going back on the huge picture, I want me to be PAINTED not to be shot. Okay? And technically, people can shoot me cause I believe in the saying, "Those allowed to shoot are those prepared to be shot." So shoot me all you want cause I'm already dead!

18. Before I die, I want to try shooting something. But when I'm dead already, people, just stick a gun in my limp and lifeless hand and use my finger, well, pull it or exert effort on it, to pull the trigger. Bwahahaha.

19. Okay. I'm frickishly serioush about this. D: I want me friends to like, not frickin forget me! I want all of them (Yes, that means you, too, Hope, Iona, Livanne and Micah) to be laughing like Hell when they be all "buuurrrn"-ing me. I'm sick. TO THE NEXT LEVEL.

20. When they like, burn me, I want posters of ALL the anime that I've watched to be hanging in the room and in MY bedroom! D<>

Okay. I've just out-freakified myself. Ohwell. I'm serious about this. I'll probably blog about my ultimo dream to rule over the world next time. :D

Tata.

Randomnezz {With conversation}

2009-03-09T03:16:00.001-07:00

ANGARD,
SOLDIER!

Feel the wrath of Kaoru Hiatachiin! D:

Okay. I suck as an Ouran fan now. I can't tell them apart! Dear Jeezus!

Well. Anyways. Randomize, me, babe.

Hope and I were walking around and we were waiting for Iona and Livanne when boredom struck us!

Here is/was our conversation / / BISAYA STYLE! XD \ \

Kris : -stands up-

Hope : -follows-

Kris : -walks around for a while-

Hope : -follows-

Kris : -turns around- Aha ta? (where to?)

Hope : Ikaw una bah. (You first, yeah.)

Kris : Why?

Hope : Di ko kabalo aha mo adto, na. (Idk where to go. Meh...)

Kris : ...o___o''?

Hope : Random baya ka nga tao. Ga tuyoktuyok ra ka. (You're a random person. You keep going in circles.)

Kris : ...Ah. Danhi ra ta. (Let's stay here.)

Hope : Okay.

Kris : Let's just wait for them here.

Hope : ...Kay.

Kris : Is that my father?

Hope : ...what?

Kris : Is that dad?!

Hope : Kris! It's your dad!

Kris : -___-'' I know.

End of our conversation.

One that lacks sense, purporse and all that shinnimajigs.

And no. I will not contradict you, Hope. I'm random. Damn random. D:

Braincells = OFFICIALLY DEAD {Now with a contract}

2009-03-08T00:34:00.000-08:00

Unforgettable.
Unreliable.
Predestined.
Love.
(for Britannia)

Too much Code Geass. Won't really hurt anybody but my fingers are so numb from the cold. Meh.

I am here now to explain further my *hate* for Lelouch Lamperouge, AKA, incompetent/insertsomethinginsultinghere loser.

I like the Black Knights. It is Lelouch I do not like.

Point now taken, I will proceed with this...blog. Entry. Yeah.

I am tired. My braincells are dead. THEY DIED. FORGOTTEN. BURIED. ASCENDED. DESCENDED. MASSACRED. THEY. JUST. DIED.

So yes. I have had it with (insertsomethingveryinsultinghere). I try to be all "Ok. Sure. I'll let that pass." but sometimes, it's just too much. Like what Aile blogged/posted on her LJ or somewhere else.

I think it was on her website when she made a "Roleplaying 101 for dummies" or something as canny as that. Meh.

I'm not all superior and shiz like Lelouch but yeah.

And if you're wondering, "If you hate Lelouch so much why do you use his picture?!" it's cause he has an expression. Like, I'd love to see what he'd look like if ever he - - - Excuse me. That was a slip up.

:D

You are....zero!!

2009-03-07T22:40:00.000-08:00

I am disappointed
in you,
LELOUCH.

It's to be expected of the idiot, Lelouch Lamperouge, but I don't see why he has to hurt Rolo's feelings! Damn you, Lelouch. You think, just because you have the complete obedience Geass you'd be god! Get this you filthy git, you're not, okay?

And if you're so down, thinking Nunnally is dead (stopped on ep. 18) then it's your fault for ordering Suzaku to "Live on, Suzaku! Live on!" back in the earlier episodes, back in the first season!

And you know what else, LeDOUCH? You 'effin SHOT Euphie, and KILLED her! Why the 'ell am I venting, ranting, letting this out NOW?!

And what now, Ledouch? You gonna kill Kallen, too? Sacrifice your ace? Kill your very best friend, well, past, Suzaku Kururugi? Kill the kid that see you as a brother, that loves you? You just gonna hurt Rolo Lamperouge's feelings like that? Well, mind you, you idiot. I hate you, Lelouch.

You really are "Zero", a Zero, reckless, incompetent, stupid, STUPID, indulgent, attention-seeking, over-conceited, high-flyer that falls, LOSER. Yeah. I called you a loser, Emperor Lelouch vi Britannia. Well, stfu, man.

My "Kris li Britannia" is because I am married to Schneizel li Britannia. Ha! I'd go for Rolo but you two have the last name. I swear you're gonna get it. In the after life.

You use them all as pawns, you're worst than Sebastian Michaelis of Kuroshitsuji! Harming Ciel Phantomhive...

Like, damn you, Lelouch.

You and your superiority compelx. I wish Nunnally is DEAD. DIED. GONE. FORGOTTEN.

All hail Britannia!

{Kallen Kozuki/Stadtfeld, Tamaki, Ohgi Kaname, Villetta, Rakshata, C.C, and a few others...okay. I don't really hate Area Eleven OR the Black Knights, it's just Zero/Lelouch the douche. That's why when somebody from the Black Knights gets, like, or, go kaboom, I'm gonna be "Aww" same thing with Britannians. But if it's Lelouch getting harmed then yeah, I'll be all hopping in my seat and cheering, "Kill Zero! Kill Lelouch! KILL HIIIM!!"}

All hail Britannia!

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

2009-03-07T06:30:00.000-08:00

Once I sat,
And once you sang,
I listened,
Today, I hear nothing.

I still fail at photo editing. But get this...I seriously remembered something that happened a year ago. More than that. First year. When I listened to the song, "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Greenday, I think it was the trigger. I remembered a friend sitting somewhere near me, and I sat as well, and then the said friend started singing.

Whether to himself or for me to hear, I forgot. But it seemed like a very good moment, too bad I can't relive it, my memory is so foggy these days. It's a good thing I have a blog. But r-really, that one with the song...If I focus, I can get a glimpse of what it looked like a year ago. But I don't really know. Augh. D:

"Once I sat,
And once you sang,
I listened,
Today, I hear nothing;"

That simply meant that once upon a time, I sat down and you sang and I listened. Today, I don't hear you anymore because it seems as if everything is so clouded, shrouded, as if your piece of the puzzle had been lost. . . So dramatic. It must be because of my angst-y Bella/Rod.

But I swear a certain friend DID sing that once.

You know, it kinda hurts when you think back on the days and realize that you were once so close to a certain person and now, when you look at where you're standing, you find yourself far away, as if you drifted to the other side of the world. To say, "He was my friend," to say it in the past tense kinda gives off a hard pang, don't you think so?

Is it just me or am I srsly stopping with the nostalgia / / reminiscence.

But it was a good song.

Song for the night : Boulevard of Broken Dreams; Green Day

Who?!

2009-03-07T06:24:00.000-08:00

Found a
picture
in my folder.
Now I'm wondering who he is.
Or where he came from.

Who, I say, who is this boy?! Hope sent this picture to me earlier today and I slipped off my bed! Who is this dude?! D:

"The weather man" What the 'ell is that?

Aurgh! I completely suck at photo editing. Drat. D:

Finally, CG2!

2009-03-07T03:15:00.000-08:00

Laid my hands on
a priceless
item.

I finally got my Code Geass : R2 dvd!

Hell yeah, baby! So long watching online, hello mah tv and dvd player!

:D

I had fun today with my tita and yeah. Yey! Code Geass~! I'm gonna go watch it with my sister. Haha.

The Climb

2009-03-06T19:59:00.000-08:00

I can almost see it;
That dream
I'm Dreaming

I am a fan of Miley Cyrus and I love her song "The Climb." It's seriously a great song and it has it's value. Miley outdid herself. I don't know why she's being compared with Selena, Selena Gomez cannot act. Miley can, in some ways, and she isn't that bad a singer - Miley, that is.

But to tell you the truth, Demi Lovato also has a voice.

Hm. I seriously just love this song.

"There's always gonna be another mountain, I'll always gonna wanna make it move," it has it's value as a song, a deeper meaning into it and that's what I like about Miley's songs. They have meaning, not just some junkie song that goes, "Tell me something I don't know, tell me something I don't know," that kind of song is rubbish!

Seriously.

Miley is way better than Selena.

'Nuff said.

Song for the day: The Climb, Miley Cyrus

Playlist

2009-03-06T17:50:00.000-08:00

One philosopher said:
Music is life.
Okay. Not one philosopher said that.
But wait till I become one.
:D

Hm. I just added a playlist so yeah. Filled with the first few songs that popped into my head. D:

Just got back from jogging and the like. I'll probably take a shower in half an hour cause me and my aunt are going.

Oh well. Thought I'd just post. :D

GRINDYLOWS! {post dedicated to ria}

2009-03-06T05:47:00.000-08:00

Fleur pronounces
"Grindylow"
better.

What a total loser. I'm totally getting where Ria is going at.

Like seriously. This Coleen babe that's got her all worked up and the like, well, I think the Coleen dolt would infuriate anyone she's likely to meet. I've only got a few words regarding her, I don't know her that much but I believe, a hundred and infinity percent, on what Ria wrote on her livejournal account.

"Coleen is a major attention-seeking bitch."

Ah. To cry over a Twilight book...

WHERE HAS LITERACY LEAD US NOW?!

Twilight is a horrible excuse for a book and I will rant on another post, maybe tomorrow, for now, I will just talk about this girl I haven't known.

Ria says she's been an honor for the past 2 quarters, first, but I don't see the point. You need not to brag when you're the top cause obviously, as Ria's dear friend, Cosette, has stated, "Most of the people are just lazy." and if they weren't lazy then they would've been top 3, top 2, top 1, you get it.

Damn.

Imma end this here now cause I'm gonna check that layout Ria showed me.

Did I forget to say that Ria is awesome and diss her && I'll break your face. :D

Lost, much?

2009-03-06T01:55:00.000-08:00

It's not about being written.
It's about being read.

Like, I would like to being this journal entry with a few words : Ha ha ha.

Dad didn't pick me up today so I decided to go home with Danica. It was sort of a rather stupid thing, really, when we decided to walk home cause school is like...just around the corner for both of us. So maybe at first it wasn't really that stupid but then when we decided to take a turn, for a supposed "shortcut", everything started going down. As in, literally cause the road was like heading downwards. So yeah. We didn't know the people from that neighborhood and all the leads we had was, "the church!" and she totally trusted me. Doesn't take a genius to realize that one should not often trust Kris Young with the directions. So yeah, and I kept saying, "If we pass the basketball court then we've passed the way"...and we walked for a few minutes, passing a few people who were all like "O.o". Well, it wasn't embarrassing cause we weren't from there and people technically didn't know us so all's good!

So yeah...we walked. And walked. And seriously kept on walking. We were thinking of turning back but Danica was like, "It'll be humiliating if they find us going back!" so I was like, shrug shrug, sure sure and stuff so yeah. I admit I forgot where that little road was or something and I really didn't want to admit it to her cause she'd probably murder me. And then I was asking myself, "...Does this place even have a basketball court or was that the other street?" and then...yeah. We found the paved road and proceeded, ending up somewhere near a church, just in front of Danica's house.

When we turned back Danica was like, "Idiots! We were idiots! That was no shortcut! This place is easier to walk on, its clean, clear and the like and it's SHORT, Kris, SHORT!"

So I was then like, "You ought to have not listened to me. It was really stupid, what I suggested, but you were stupid too for going along with it."

...Silence.

And then we exploded in laughter. So yeah. No harm done except we almost got lost and our pride was at stake. We barely knew, okay, we DIDN'T even know those people but I think they'd have a laugh if they found us going back towards the entrance, like, retracing our steps and stuff so yeah.

Plus, plus, the AP review for the NAT (National Achievement Test) was totally...an epic phailure. I have no idea why they would want us to take a test like so, I'm a Second Year in fricking High School and yeah! Like. Damn Kong Hua.

++Taken from my Livejournal, written a night ago.

No Justice

2009-03-06T01:51:00.000-08:00

American Idol hols
no
JUSTICE.

I-I w-want Nathaniel Marshall back! D: And he wasn't even part of the Wild Card contestants and shiz! Liek, damn!

I want Nate back! I was completely moved by his "I'd do anything for Love" performance last night and..and..and...I want him back.

Ju'Not was a waste, too. His "Hey There Delilah" was awesome b-but...liek...

But I want Nathaniel BACK. Screw you American Idol, you rock, Nathaniel Marshall!

&&Iluffhisfashionsense.

Kris li Britannia is now sad...

...From pissed off to sad...

2009-03-06T01:46:00.001-08:00

NEVER
piss a teacher.

We were all reviewing for our frickin NAT exams when suddenly, the classroom idiot//clown decided to totally disrespect the teacher. He can do that to other teachers but not to our Algebra one cause srsly, ma'am Roa is S-C-A-R-Y (when mad).

She was like, "You know what? All you need are horns, Jerick!"

And then she turned to us, "I'm sorry but because of Jerick, we'll all be staying till 6pm, REVIEWING."

"And don't tell me it's torture because I don't like this as well. Right now I could be lounging in the faculty room, GAPA-AYAHAY, so don't complain."

I end this here now. D:

Screw the idiot of a classmate.

++Taken from my LiveJournal account. Written last night. Out of frustration.

Off Now

2009-03-05T22:25:00.000-08:00

Writing this
supah fast.

So now I'm like, writing this super fast cause dad's not here and I need to get going. D:

I'm gonna be posting on this thing often now. I liek this place. Haha. XD;;

DoubleMhad

2009-03-05T21:35:00.000-08:00

Braindead.

I finally decided to post something here. Livejournal is difficult and I decided to do more blogging. Lulz. I'll probably not be spiffying this place, cause all I want is to just blog about something so yeah. :D

Double math. Two hours.

My braincells are dead.